break ups & make ups

So much gossip to spill and so much to say. Ok my party turned out okay. In fact grrreat! lol :D. My friends came alyssa and raven and some other people. Then my boyfriend called and i broke up with him. I didn't break up with him becuz he cheat or anything it was because we didnt have no classes together and not only that i hardly ever see him. Which sucks. So i ended it. No boo hoo thing. Just...ended it.  Actually he got over me pretty fast. Real fast.
I'm not saying i'm jealous or anything but hes moving on. Then he texted my cuz and said ask me if we can still be friends. I said sure why not i dont hate you ...so y not speak. So afterschool today he was with another girl my besttfriend friend. He was like hugging her and following her. He can get clingy. She kept moving him away but he grabbed her waist!!! LoL i have a feeling he's making me jealous becayse he saw when i was headed to my busstop so he fooled around in FRONT OF MY BUS! on purpose. Then he would look 2 see if i was lookin'. I didnt. So i was beyond shock wen he called my house. He's taking the breakup good..So when he was getting off.

he said ''i love you'' then quickly added ''as a friend'' and got off. WOW! smh...

Disaster

Disater eveytime i do something. Dunno why but it all ways end up in a disater. Like tomorrow im so nervous about the party its not even funny. Im sweating bullets emailing people and have a bad feeling about it all. So...im taking it slow. My sister is freaking stressing me out about jobs and mean bosses and all of that. Did you kno she used to work for the mayor of baltimore Shelia Dixon? Yeah and my sister said she got kicked out of office. Seriously should i care about this stuff..at all?  I kno for a few days i havent beenn giving you the scoopa about celebs only the scoop about me which tends to be boring...so im a stick a little bit celeb drama in there! oh snap do u kno about american idol? Simon got kicked out!  Yessss...im late lol. But he got kicked out now people is not intimidated by him. Also another incoming news in taylor lautner on steriods? Sources say that a  boy cant be that strong without no help? Wow back to american idol did u see that girl in the blue dress when she started to sing even though the judges is telling her to stop she kepps going on. lmfaooooo

*huh if i think this party's going 2 be tough imagine my sweet 16!*

(me)

Man.Oh man. I am never ever planning a party! ever! it's 1) it's 2 much work. I have 2 let some people down and i cant reach the limit of over 6 friends! Do you have any idea how hard that is? Very hard. I mean i kno so many people its  a shame. If i tell certain people about my party and then some people overhear then its going 2 be a big problem. A humangous problem. Then i invited like 10 people so im kicking off 4. unfortunately and i have to say sorry were overpacked. Besides i know my sister might cancel the party it's just 2 much.....Food, drinks...and i am suppose to find us something to do. Yikes. Turtle races, uh...truth or dare...um (still thinking) Have a snowball fight outside....have contests and more!!!!! This party is in 4 a rude awakening. smh...

suck it up (marathon of pep talk)

I kno i shown my weak side to u all. It was a diifucult. So i shouldnt be moping around. But do  soemthing about it. Pll learn from me. U got a problem suck it up. I'm not saying to be all botled up and have some serious issues and make exuces. No learn to face ur problem head 2 head. Like a true person (girls) face it n be a women about it! (men) face it like a warrior like the men  u  guys are.....btw which u guys arent were teens..no rush they're! i soo not ready to pay bills and all that. I like 2 stay young for a little while anf=d not push it 2 its limits. To end a problem do not avoid it because it makes thingsmuch worse. Really ive lived through it i saw it and i saw eveything. so i pass on the word. Plus you ppl rite now think im all mighty. But i write anything on this blog any chance i get and i will take the oppurtunity anytime to pep up my blog i made in 2010. Starting the new year irresponsible but i will hange..oh gosh lol im startin' to sound like a pastor *(do not wan dat)* anywho....IM CHERRIN UP things looking gooder now that i got rid of the probs in my life from my previous blog posts (wink)

pain.....

 

These few blogpost have been painful for me 2 write i cant tell any1 and then ....watever. My sister i just want her 2 come back home. She took the wrong path..yes but we will miss her. She was eveything 2 me n i hope she will return. I'm moping online. Ugh i feel like a nerd with no life. Literally. I promise myself im going 2 get throught this. Get focous on school and get good grades and impress my parents n be tthe only child that they had succeed with flying colors. The reason bruno mars is a role model for me rite now cuz he is a singer tht just songs express my life right now. We all have ways 2 express our emotions. Minez is writing. Do u knmo wen u lost a person..u wish they were here was rite here rite now. So im going 2 write wat i feel. LISTEN to bruno mars - long distance! right now. When u read this.

shark in the water

Have all of a suuden my life have exactly like degrassi but middle school version? Yes it have. My so called friend is suddenly want to become some 1 she isnt. Oh the tittle..its the degrassi song that something is in store for these specific highschool students. But for me it means my life is grtting a whole lot complicated and its my birthday week starting 2moroww. So heres my complications. 1) my so called friend is becoming a ho..not a ho a slut. No offense but she met a guy over da internet ..im not saying thts bad he has a gf n hes flirting with anda girl. how do u think tht girl feels? soon tht girl will be her and hes doing the same thing 2 anada girl. smh. 2) my family is stressing the crap out of me. 3) my cuzin is dead. 4) my  bf is a jerk no a jackass. 5) i feel like im fighting a ones man battle. im going therough a lot right now. So im turning 13 and having a party....waiting to see how thats going to come out. 6) my sisters missing. :( im crying til i cant no more. So im going to show evry 1 that i grown a back bone. I'll admit that im not the same girl who wrote tht first blogpost. I'm going 2 make a vow to stand up and speak..EVEN if it means standing alone. listen to this song...bruno mars- all she knows

celebs...starting a new trend....DRIINKING!

So heartthrob taylor launtner from twilight was acting vey weird on facebook this morning. He put on his stus what sounds animals make. Like wtf? he said pigs oink oink. Even selena Gomez knew something was up...she was like are you sniffing that stuff? lol i just had tlo laugh. He said noooo and then said cats meow. Lol waht? its not funny. It does sound like he was drinking..First Demi lovato then Miley cyrus...now taylor....oh gawd ...u kno we might be taking it the wrong way! it might be a new trend..lol who knos. But all i know this 'trend' needs to stop whos nbext jb? HOPE NOT!